Existential crises are definitely worthwhile. I highly recommend them, actually. Because handled appropriately, you find acceptance and fulfillment…for yourself.
Once again, I’ve neglected this blog. But I really haven’t. I’ve learned it just wasn’t time to tend to it. But I’m back for the moment, as I do have some news to share.
As I’ve said before, in my absence I’ve still been writing and generally trying to figure myself out. I will say that at one point life was pretty intense, as you can tell by previous posts on this blog, but it’s better now. Better because I’m less concerned these days. I’m more curious about where what was once concerning is leading me. I can say that I’ve reached a point in my life where I have a better understanding of why sh*t had to go the way it did. And I’m also at the point where I actually appreciate all of it.
Now this is not to say that I’ve achieved Nirvana. But I like to think that I’ll get to continue on this path forever, because it truly is an amazing journey when you just accept yourself for who you are. It makes waiting to see what comes next all the more exciting.
A New Series Is Born
As many of you know, I’ve been practicing all things published writing for a couple of years now and had kind of settled into writing my version of Mr. Darcy erotica. I’ve never been shy about critiquing myself and my writing, and while I know it’s not literary genius by any stretch, it’s part of my path. And I appreciate it for what it is teaching me.
I’ve found another series of stories in me. They’re different, and based on that novel I’ve mentioned before. It is a novel I wrote years ago that I never published. What makes this particular series different…or so I think…is that they’re not coming from my ego. My “worldly persona.”
You all know that I’ve been on a journey inward, so what I’m about to say shouldn’t come as any surprise. This series which I’ve titled “Cage of Souls” (for reasons which will expose themselves later, if you choose to read it), is from someplace different. Someplace deeper. It’s a story which I don’t feel like I’m “writing.” It’s really just a story that I enjoy imagining. And this is saying a lot, because I forgot how to dream and imagine for a lot of years. It’s nice to begin to see that I didn’t lose it completely, just misplaced it for awhile.
Existential, As Always
This series is so much more “me” than anything I’ve written before in that it’s not a “life assignment” I’ve given myself. I don’t feel myself trying to figure out what comes next. What comes next simply comes next (no pun…wait…yes, pun totally intended).
But yes, you’ll likely see elements of the existential journey I’ve been on for the last few years. And while it’s my fiction, it’s also so gratifying for me to write, which makes this special to me. Whether I write it well, whether others appreciate it for what it is, *insert any other critique I could present to myself here,* the one thing I know is that, so far, I am finding great joy in the process of creating this series. Which eliminates any need to possibly explain why this series now exists, how I could make it better, and on and on.
I suppose this also means that when I no longer find the same joy in creating these stories will be the day that the series is complete. It’s kind of nice learning how to listen to and trust myself. Looking back, it’s rather obvious that I’ve never really did. I’ve always filtered my ideas through my ego and what everyone else will think or feel. This way feels much better.
But Until Then…
I give you the first literotica short story in the “Cage of Souls” Series…
I Almost Forgot the Best Part
Here’s a link to a story I absolutely LOVE! It’s so fitting for this genre…and me. (Side Note: I actually have the picture I took of “The Ecstasy of St. Teresa” in Rome framed in my living room. Clearly I’m a fan!)