self talk, thoughts, manifesting

Negative Conviction

programming, thoughts, repetition, talking to yourself, conviction

Last night, just before falling asleep, I wrote the words, “You’re lacking conviction. Having conviction places both your passive and your direct focus on the desired outcome.” I woke this morning still thinking about conviction. 

Conviction has its foundation in confidence, and confidence is another way of having faith. Doubts, fears, and worry dampen confidence. But without confidence you cannot generate conviction in anything. Sure, we can be confident in our negativity. And truthfully many of us don’t even realize that the only conviction we have is toward our negative beliefs. That’s why they keep showing up. But negative conviction isn’t anyone’s goal, save maybe a critic. So, if we’re to polish our convictions we must practice building our confidence. But how?

The 2 Step Repetitive Process

Step 1.

If you are ever to start “believing” you can have your goal of major change (which is just another way of building the confidence you need to grow conviction for your goal) you must embrace that it begins with training your mind. And it’s going to take time. Not a ton of time, but it’s going to feel like it because you’re going to have to be diligent in redirecting your thoughts. But you will learn a lot along the way.

Embrace that you’ll need to speak to your thoughts directly, give them orders, even ask them to tell you why the f*ck they’re so persistent. Let them answer. This is how you reconcile your darkness. This is the psychospiritual part.

You’ll soon see that you’re building confidence and managing your mind with conviction, which can only lead to managing your life with conviction. It’ll happen so seamlessly that you probably won’t even notice. And the relief is that your thoughts won’t feel as daunting.

Step 2.

Once you have a good handle on managing your thoughts and redirecting them, begin practicing placing things in your passive focus and see how quickly they manifest. Things like a song, or the familiar “manifest a parking space.” Start with things you’re not very attached to, things you can think and let go of quickly without much emotional investment. And know that this is going to take practice too, but this is the practice you need to move up to manifesting those big, life changing goals. Remember, you’re building your confidence. So keep practicing. If they don’t come quickly, you know that you need more practice. 

Possible Step 3

As your confidence builds things will seemingly get easier and there will likely be a Step 3 for manifesting the bigger things. From what I can tell, when I unwittingly manifested big things, the thought/idea was in my direct focus with so much confidence of conviction it was also in my passive focus. I’m still in Step 2, so as I work through all of this I’ll keep you posted on Step 3.

Mindfulness and Meditation

One last thing. Don’t forget to practice meditating too. It helps relax the mind and opens you up to new thoughts. And mindfulness is another good practice when learning how to train your mind. Know the difference between these two types of minds and begin to practice them. Every little bit helps when reigning back in a mind that has been left unchecked for decades.

Relatable Pitfalls

The biggest pitfall for me, despite having manifested massive things and tiny things was embracing that I just wasn’t going to understand exactly how this all worked, but there were elements to it which were clear. 

When my life fell apart, my confidence was obliterated. But all along this journey I did find sporadic conviction to manifest things directly, like the Vegas experience. I remember, before I left my room that morning I talked directly to myself in the mirror, not angrily or arrogantly, just directly. Then, unbeknownst to me, I let it settle into my passive focus as I made my way into the world. Everything unfolded perfectly. But when it didn’t keep going, I seemed to slip away from the practice. 

What this life takes is your focus, your willingness to practice what it takes to get where you want to go. Your willingness to nurture you own confidence which is also how you practice conviction. Not arrogance, conviction.

About the author

The Enlightened Spectacle blog uses the exes, codependent tendencies, and esoteric thoughts of one woman in search of life’s deeper meaning as the inspiration for you to deviate from social norms, gain new perspectives, and embrace the darkness on your own Path of Enlightenment.

Josie de Vere is evolving thinker who happens to be codependent and also a writer. Hoping her journey through the darkness to know enlightenment inspires others along the way.


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